Diva

The World Will Always Love You.

Thank you Whitney, for all the beautiful music.

18

18 is a lovely age to be in.

You can blame your sudden eruptions of laughter and fits of downpour on hormones.

You can point your finger at being a teenager for your crazy behaviors and being emo and whatever irrational and illogical thoughts running through your mind 24hours a day.

You can be silly, hysterical, hyper, grumpy, grouchy (ouch! that goes for most females once a week in every month) whatever, and in later days either blush in embarrassment of your wild younger days or reminisce about it in a much better and happier light.

To me. 18 is also the awkward age where teenage-meets-adult.

And saying goodbye has never been an easy task.

8 minutes later I will be officially 19. Birthdays no longer gives me the pleasure as it was in maybe 3 or 5 years old. When you get older, birthdays no longer matter. No really. It is just another day in another month of another year.

Especially when your birthday falls on a day where many people in this very same earth, breathing this very same air had lost their loved ones in just a blink of their eye.

To those who experience such painful lost, I could give nothing to you except a simple blessing.

To those who loved me, thank you so much. I am not a perfect girl, and I have my faults, but I felt really blessed to have your love. Although my love for you may not be equal as yours, but I am a simple creature: I readily love those who sincerely love me.

18 had been a lovely year, but it is really time to say farewell.

Esmeralda sang something in Notre Dame De Paris's " God Help The Outcast" that touched me very much:

I ask for nothing

I can't get by.

But I know so many less lucky than I.

Listen my people, the poor and down-trod

I thought we all were

the children of God.

(I may not be a Christian, but I believe that all religions are great and beautiful, and they enlighten souls in their own way. I may not be a good devotee, but I respect mine and all other religions. )

So for this year, I wanted wish the same as what was mention above. I am thankful of being alive, and living without too heavy a burden. I am happy, and contented the way I am now, and I pray that all those that I love and those who love me will remain happy and well both physically and mentally.

God, please give me strength and courage to walk this unseen path. Please be compassionate towards all your children on this Earth, and let them not suffer too heavy a burden to bear. Please grant your children the ability to love, and be love back. Please let us live in peace and understanding, tolerance, and compassion.

May this year be another one that I will not look back in regret and shame.